Gift to myself

On my birthday, I gave myself forgiveness, for all the crazy things I did. I gave myself freedom, freedom from all the pain from the past. I gave myself hope, hope that one day everything will be perfect. I gave myself strength for all the things that are bound to happen. I gave myself reason, reason to wake up after June 7.

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Dream Journal #4

Of all the things I can dream on my birthday. It was the weirdest, though I love the idea. I am 5 months pregnant and that my due date was in December. He was the father,of course,and that he is all excited to see his son. I saw how swollen my belly was. Though me being pregnant did not stop him from leaving, for whatever the reason is,I did remind him not to even think about cheating since I can run away and never come back with his child

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Dates

Three days before my birthday. Eleven days before his birthday. Thirtheen days before I have my operation

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Dream Journal #3

Scary and Funny. Scary coz I still dream about you and your grandfather. Funny because even in my dreams he hates me, he doesn't want me to be with you. Even in my dreams he haunts me.

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Random Thoughts

Now Im confused..is it May or June? Is it 5 or 6 ? Have I totally forgetten??

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Dream Journal # 02

It's like you've been invading my dreams, not that I think about you at night, maybe, just maybe, my subconscious mind still misses you.

In my dreams, we're still together, in my dreams I have forgotten how you broke my heart. We're about to see a movie, just the usual thing we do when we're still together. Not  until a girl made a scene, and I have to make sure she won't bother us anymore. Then I left with the girl, told you to go see the movie then I'll get back to you. Funny how I wasn't able to find my way back, funny how you never looked for me, funny how even in my dreams, you still don't care

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Random Thoughts #01

I wanted to commend myself, for I had totally forgotten your birthday until now.  Five years of celebrating your birthday made me unconsciously mark May 6.  But hey, it's been a week and I'd only realize it now, Good job Sai! Good job!~

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Dream Journal # 01

Today, I dreamt of Dale. I was in his familiar bed, as we cuddle, I ask him, "Did you ever cheat on me" . I didn't hear him answer right away, when he was about to answer, I cut him off.  "Don't bother, I don't want to know it anymore"

When I woke up, I regret not knowing the answer. I should have persisted. I should have waited for your answer. For I can only see you in my dream.

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